My post yesterday was already getting long, and I didn't want to go off in another area and make it even longer, so I left this part for today. But really it fits on with the end of yesterday. It is about being thankful.
Yes, I am already not looking forward to having to say goodbye (even for five days) to my sons here in order to go meet new little mister, and I am not looking forward to having to leave him (after just meeting him) to allow time for the adoption to be finalized, but the thing is: I am so thankful that I am even in this position in the first place. I am so blessed to be their mommy at all.
This whole life that I am living is a gift, and I am keenly aware of it. I definitely took the long and winding road to marriage and parenthood, but I am so grateful that I am here now. Due to a whole variety of circumstances that would make a whole other post, I waited a long time to meet my husband. I was already well into my thirties at that point. And when we did get married a couple years later, and we tried to start a family, it just didn't happen. We spent a few years chasing fertility, but after a lot of months of nothing, and a lot of tears, and a lot of knee time, we came to the realization that perhaps God's plan for growing our family involved adoption.
That was seven years ago. And now, not only am I wife to an awesome man and mother to two amazing boys that fill my life with joy, but I am also mommy to one more adorable boy that I will get my hands on very soon and who I'm sure will add even more joy to my joy. I am filled with thankfulness for this rich and beautiful life. Truly, my cup overflows.