I've been thinking a lot about our little guy. I know, big shocker there!!
Part of me can still hardly believe that it is actually true, that after that long long wait, we finally did receive a referral. That we learned our travel dates. That we travelled. That we had the interviews and took the tests. That we met our son!! That he was with us for 48 precious hours. That we played with him, and sang to him, and read him books, and fed him, and snuggled with him, and kissed him about a bazillion times. And that (ugh!) we left without him. That is actually happened and wasn't just some dream.
It is just so wonderful to know that all those things actually did occur, and now we are just waiting to hear that the court is done with its work on our case, and we can travel back and finalize everything. It has been two weeks since we filed our papers at court. Not really all that long in the scheme of things. We were told at the time that it would be around two months before our second trip. If that is true, then we are 25% through the wait until our second trip! WOW!! Put that way, it doesn't seem bad at all. Of course, it could be something more along the lines of two to four months until we fly, in which case we are about 12-25% through our wait.
So what do we do? We wait. We pray. We keep living life here, living in the present as much as possible, and being in the moment. We have real life duties here every day and tons of tasks ahead of us, most of which bring lots of joy. Not gonna lie -- the process of cleaning the bathrooms doesn't actually bring me joy, especially the boys' bathroom, but I am oh so glad I have two bathrooms, and that they are indoors, and that the plumbing works a-ok, and that it's a big rarity when I ever have to wait for the bathroom.
And in those moments when I am on a task that I can spare a few brain cells for some multi-tasking, I remember that sweet little boy. And you know that the edges of my mouth cannot help but to turn into a little smile at just the thought of him. That sweet face and big eyes and precious smile. And that cute little way he would do that pointing thing. And that adorable way that he fed us Cheerios. And that studious way that he would work those stacking cups to get them to fit together or look at the pages of a book. And that snuggly way that he would curl into my arms when I would walk him around and stroke his back. And that baby bird way that he would open his mouth so wide for a spoonful of eggs or potatoes or chicken or fruit. And that way he would laugh with abandon when Jerry tickled him, and then would pretend he was asleep so Jerry would tickle him some more. And that happy way he would play with the truck, the train, the ball.
We are so looking forward to seeing you again mi hijito!!!